Jenyin's

2011-02-24T01:56:00.003+08:00

because my internal struggles are gonna kill me one day

2009-08-18T01:47:00.003+08:00

how do you mend a broken heart;

2009-06-22T02:18:00.001+08:00

i give up.

2009-06-12T02:56:00.009+08:00

Living in my small world, all other things behind.

i dont wanna care, see or even think.

2009-04-29T04:38:00.001+08:00

Its frustrating, cause i just cant get to sleep!

2009-04-01T10:51:00.002+08:00

love the song and the pictures..

2009-04-01T09:17:00.009+08:00

emptiness

how i wish this was all but a joke, just a happy april's fool baby.
feels so still suddenly..but i'll learn ..

2009-02-26T01:36:00.002+08:00

encouragement to my dearest friend :) <3 get well soon!

2009-01-28T23:33:00.001+08:00

scarred for life.

2009-01-25T01:32:00.002+08:00

what more do you want from me.

2009-01-12T16:04:00.002+08:00

Its frustrating, disheartening, dissapointing, everything.

Times like this that i really just wanna give it up once and for all since there will never be an end to this. Naive of me to think that things would really work out, personality and character can be changed. But in the end, im just me. I cant change myself..

2008-12-04T02:06:00.008+08:00

I've decided to pursue my career as a nurse! :)

stop thinking so much my dear <3

2008-11-22T00:22:00.002+08:00

boring friday

i hate the change in you.

2008-11-20T02:22:00.009+08:00

Been so free lately, too free i guess.

Shouldn't be so free, shouldn't be thinking so much (yesiknow)

and yet.

Things are never gonna be the same again, as much as i expect it to.

Ruined everything with my own hands, but yet expect someone to lift me up.

Its just plain selfishness.

I cant handle the least bit, alone.

I cant sort out, i cant differentiate, i cross the line.

everything's screwedup. everything's.

Things that i cant solve, i run from them.

and i'll hide. and pretend to be ignorant.

why cant we just let it go and live a better day?

2008-11-13T20:18:00.024+08:00

[super long entry]

27-29oct

Bee darl's 21st birthday chalet!

Coasta Sands Sentosa

1stday

Helped bee carry stuffs to chalet. (actually guys did most of it la, ha) I helped carry balloons, umbrellas and stuffs like paper plates, cups.....

Slacked in the room for a while, camwhored a bit and went downstairs to prepare for BBQ !

Girls crowd around the pit to "eat on the spot" no need plate one, a fork will do

Skip details of bbq, (see pics in facebook) heh.

The bbq food was delicious. Fresh n lovely prawns which RS and Peter peeled. hehe. Potatoes with butter with chaotar taste.! Sambal and black pepper sotong which I marinated! My top 3 fav. lol

Others include..black pepper dory fish, satay, variety of sausages, mushroom with garlic, turkey and bacon strips with mushroom, otah, jelly with cocktail,lime....(Bee's godfather made), the must have mushmellows with melted choc...and much much more (memory failing me)

Realised there isn't the normal bbq will-have chicken wings?? Cus bee don't like! lol.

yummy! Jianming and mushmellows

Her lovely strawberry shortcake :) [MR TOMKINS!]

Tommy is sincerely singing birthday song to beebee LOL

She burped damn loudly

Jenbeebel <3

Her pressent and wedding card (bel's idea!) lol.

Played zhong ji mi ma with some leftover sauces and drinks. The very lucky me didnt tio, so i didnt have to taste that yucky mix! Bee had to, because we somehow managed to agree on a number and cooperate within ourselves when she was away! TEEHEEHEE

yuck :x

Gabriel's turn!

What happened next, i dunno too. All i did was to run far far away from people like wenyang and eugene who had stuffs like butter, coke and honey ON them. :X

The start of it all (notice that i was already missing?)

Poor thing. Not that I dont wanna save you, but er.. er......er.. :x

The 2 culprits and birthday girl

Cleared up stuffs, went back to the room for more games! Started off with murderer which was a different version as what i played before. Had to "kill" people tapping the other person's hand. (the one beside you) Complicating rules la! ha

Next was Indian poker. Cheryl and Wenyang were damn suay cus they kept getting either the smallest or biggest card. And of course, we managed to psycho people like Jake and Eugene (dumbones) to change their cards, and when they did, they got the best-est cards and had to drink! :D

Cheryl small is super cute la!

Eug and Jake doing their thing. lol.

The Adidas bros.

Drank, a bit :x

He says he's very huggable you see.

Got no idea what happened after the games, as I was already sleeping, together with Cheryl and wenyang. lol. I only remembered waking halfway in the night, saything "I feel like puking" and Cheryl jumped up, stepped on someone's head or body. lol.

So, i managed to get into the toilet with someone's help (i dunno who) and puked A LOT in the sink. Jianming had to dig out the sink thingy to make the puke go into the sink. :X

I also remember Jianming cursing damn loudly in the middle of the night cus someone stepped on his leg?! LOL

10people to 2 single beds, and i slept comfortably til the next morning. :D

2nd day

Ruisong, Jianming and Gab left early in the morning while I was still sleeping like a log. lol

Wokeup in a shock, thinking i've missed my 2pm audition when it was only 9plusam. Took my time to get ready, had breakfast with the rest at Koufu, Palawan Beach.

When i headed for my auditions, Bee Tommy and Wenyang went back to sleep. (they were supposed to go tanning lor) Cheryl left for lect and unsporty eug went home to sleep.

Joined them in the evening for swimming! (and Jake joined us later)

Camwhored.. a lot!

Slim arms!

Showered, took our time, dilly-dallied, and then headed out for dinner.

While waiting for tram

We ended up having dinner in 7-11 cus all the shops were closed. Grabbed lots of microwave stuffs like spagetti, pizza, burgers, rice and cup noodles. The food sucked :x but no choice, we were all damn hungry. Black pepper burger and roasted burger totally tasted the same. lol Jake even suggested a conveyor belt since we kept passing the food around, made a mess outta the place. Was enjoyable though :)

Next up, camwhore on our way back to chalet!

lovely purple background!

Colourful Spiderman!

Now sudd become superman -.-

Us and Tranny (tigger- made in thailand)

Fell asleep at 12plus while watching tv. As again, i was the first to sleep. heh

3rd day

Got woken up at 9plus, by Bee who kept making noise and stamping her feet on the bed. lol

Freshened up, packed and checked out.

Craved for dimsum and lots of food. Therefore, we headed to Food Republic with our heavy bags.

toast and eggs, har gao, siew mai, carrot cake, lou mai kai, dou jiang you tiao, ham jim beng..

slurps.

Satisfied. :D

HOME!

2008-11-11T00:38:00.007+08:00

Overdued posts (due to exams! damn exam!)

Big Jess's belated birthday

Dinner in raffles place - indo food (ziqing's restaurant)

Her pressie!

Den we moved on, to camwhore! :D

Angel is flying~~

WAHAHA

Night out 19oct - My place

Had a bad day, bad week, bad month, bad everything.

They came to cheer me up

Love jake's expression!! lol. and yes sneakups!

Beer and chips - yumyum.

I dunno what.

Played Monopoly since I dont have mahjong. (Disney version!! Bought from SIM :D)

Was damn cold and Jake was shivering. I didnt give him a jacket until he "bought" one from me.

(with monopoly money and properties! teeheehee)

Cabbed to BB macs for breakfast at around 5am. Did a damn f**king stupid thing (which i wont tell you, hehe) and wy actually brought it home until the next day. dumbdumbdumb.

Headed home after that, since Bee had to go to school and Jake had to get MC for the day . lol

2008-10-27T02:01:00.001+08:00

It's over.

and i wont, wont shed a tear.

2008-10-22T00:59:00.003+08:00

Time will give me answers and heal me.

Right now I just dont wanna be like an idiot.

damn hard to type chinese cann.

2008-10-19T16:31:00.003+08:00

Though i look damn fugly in this pic, I just wanna thank you guys for being there for me :)

Keeping myself occupied makes me think less, worry less and much happier.

2008-10-17T14:23:00.003+08:00

Sucks to be in this situation.

Stuck in the middle of nowhere, thinking of it all as a dream.

A dream which i really want to wake up and find truth.

Perhaps the truth may not be what i desire, at least I know hell whats going on.

Sometimes, I really want to put an end to this, but like what they say, how can there be an end when there wasn't even a start?

True enough, who gives a damn about status?

Its just an ugly world, with ugly liars.

I hate late nights "early mornings" msn, empty smses and reserved days :(

2008-10-16T04:55:00.002+08:00

I'm pathetic.

My life's so damn screwed up right now.

I know things arent right, but i still stepped in.

I told myself, I'm not gonna fall deep into this one, but yet i did.

Now here I am, living in another's shadow.

What am i to you?

slap me awake

2008-10-10T14:52:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I feel like such a bitch.

I guess when I die, 18gates in hell would never be enough for all my wrongdoings, for letting you go..and all the things i've done

baby..im sorry

2008-10-05T03:11:00.002+08:00

Still undecided!!! SIA??? I DUNNO :(

2008-10-05T01:19:00.008+08:00

10ct, Wednesday - Ladies Night! :) :) :)

Since it was a public holiday, Bee and i decided that they would be lots of people and thus, we met up 9PM at zouk. super early cann. Imagine getting ready at 6plus when the sun hasnt even set.

Indeed, there were LOADS of people, queue was damn long. Lucky for us, we were still the first 200 girls to get in free :D (yea gian peng)

Sober and happy people :)

Headed to Waraku for dinner, shared a pasta

Super yummy. Has both my favs - prawn and mushroom!

After that, we headed to Arena!! Free entry and free drinks . teeheehee

They had freeflow Sex On The Beach and Lychee Martini :D shiokk.

Bartenders there are nice and funny people . We had many many drinks and they were like, "dance for 5secs since take so many cups" LOL

Bee had 10cups and i had 9 ( she more gian peng than me) HAHA

Ok la, truth is we aimed 10, but I kindof got really giddy around 8 and decided to stop at 9.

We even requested for no ice and more lychees :D

three lychees! <3

Therefore, I kindof changed my impression of Arena! Used to think it was boring but that day the live band was not bad and music was really good. (the songs phuture plays arnd 3am)

Cant wait to go there again!

Bee Jen Vito :)

yes, im damn red, i know.

Lousy.

Bee didnt even tell me that, just wanted to laugh at me! hmmpfh!

But I'll still love her :)

Not gonna upload more pictures cus my face was really red, and other pics were like really crazy.

Oh right, after Arena, we cabbed back to Zouk, and upon reaching, realised that bee lost her phone. She kept swearing :( ha. Luckily, Arena bouncer kept it for her!

Ok, so back to Zouk, Phuture was already very crowded when we reached around 1plus. The ratio of guys to girls was like 7:3. By then, we were already super high cus of the alcohol we had. :D super shiokk. so we dance dance dance and it got really bad that we had to puke :X

Saw a tissue box which was 3/4 full and bee grabbed like 3/4 out of the 3/4 tissues left! Thats prob like 80pieces? yea? Aunty Bee. HA

And so, we puked out pasta. :X Headed back and went to Zouk. Mambo! They played nice music like Grease! Everyone was doing some dancesteps and i totally had no idea how to dance to that, felt like we didnt belong there. Back to Phuture!

Danced till 4am :D Shiokness.

Glad to say i only spent $8plus for dinner that night :D HEHEHE.

2008-09-18T01:12:00.012+08:00

Some random pics, to make my blog less dead ;; Bowling! Bee n Wenyang look alike here , heh JianMing's 22nd bday! Very cute Cookie Monster cake-like muffin, Lovely candle :) (and i almost spelt it as cooking monster,lol) Gone in 5secs .lol. Very very very yummy greentea icecream with fried hot balls, some tangyuan lookalike balls and redbean paste! Azo- something, the place we had this. Daddy's birthday! SMA Shoot :) Saturday night:D Friday night :D Dare! Dance with ahnehs. (I'm not indian magnet!!) RS, as well :D Cant wait!! :D:D <3<3<3

2008-09-16T16:04:00.008+08:00

yea i know, been quite a while since i blogged. cant post any pictures cus im in office now.

Im working alone today cus Jianming's sick (get well soon yea!)

boring boring boring boring.

Lucky for me, at least I've got internet, (though its super slow) a telephone, and Jm's speakers!

Poor bee had to accompany me on the phone for 1 hour. and poor chatbuddy had to spend $9 chiong cab down to accompany me for lunch. heh.

Thanks la :D

love u guys lots lots lots. lol.

Eh, actually, well.... I dunno what to blog about. haha. no pictures to show, very boring one maa!

So, i shall end here :D

ifonly.and maybe.

2008-08-20T00:05:00.003+08:00

Life's fucking unfair.Life's fucking unfair.Life's fucking unfair. the dreams and thoughts i used to have, and believed in. I know, i just cant change facts, and thats life. fucking life.

2008-08-14T23:03:00.004+08:00

Had a really bad day today, probably not the worst in my life, but definately the worst so far for this year. sigh. Sometimes, reality just hits your face and tells you, "give it up la, just get on with your bloody life!" Maybe some people will feel even more aggitated and the determination would grow even stronger. Well, me? I am trying to go on, seriously! But, I know I have my limits. I don't have what it takes, I can't even convince myself that im doing well. What happened today has further proven my point right. SPOT-ON! haha. Some people are just born to have everything advantageous to them, while some work hard for everything they achieve. I know, I am of a disadvantage, but I've never given up the thought, never thought I was THAT bad to start with. I want to learn and keep learning, I want to be prepared because I know opportunities are rare. No matter how small chances are, I have to be prepared so that if the time ever comes, I know Im ready and if it fails, I know I've tried. I always thought, if I work really really hard, my efforts will definately pay off. Well, maybe it applies to studies, and only studies. ha I'm just me. I'm not some "bu-dao-wong" which you can keep punching that will fall and keep coming back up. Maybe I used to be one, but reality has told me that I can never ever be one. Maybe I just gotta learn to take everything easy. No dreams, no expectations = no dissapointment. :) How i wish my life was as simple as that.

2008-08-14T01:19:00.004+08:00

Some pictures from Audi event which i worked like months ago! Me and one of the trainers, steven? i think. He was nice, took me for a ride around the tracks :D staff ride! heh. Cars lined up for test drive This is the most interesting of all! Trainers would speed and customers can have a taste of it (as passengers) :D I TRIED. VERY FUN. Worked with Liyana for this event for about 2weeks. Earned quite a bit:D First week of work was really slack cus all we had to do was to bring the expatriates to the cab from the arrival hall. Most of the days we only had like 3-5flights coming in. Therefore, we were super free! Hehs. First day of work, Liyana and I went shopping! The IC knew and allowed! Was totally in love with this jobb! lol. I even went to meet jianming rs and bee for a movie the next day. heh. We were also allowed to claim taxi fares most of the time :D Smartypants Liyana and I made friends with the caterers and drivers, therefore, we always had lots of food and rides home. heh. erm, ending is pretty abrupt, but i gotta go read up my piano notes! :D update soon again.

2008-08-07T02:16:00.004+08:00

TOO LAZY TO BLOG but, oh well. Can't remb when was this. Had fun :) Ruisong's 22nd bday! 29July. Alright, thats all for now :D Shall update soon again! swear!! TOO LAZY TO BLOG:(

2008-07-08T03:00:00.005+08:00

7July2008

Watched 10 promises to my dog today. It sucks!!! cus it made me cry like 3-5 times :( and it got much much worse during the ending that my tears became like an opened tap.

People all around were crying too and when i got out of the theatre, i saw all the red noses and eyes. Well, i was also one of them la. lol.
And all the ladies were rushing to the toilet cause eyeliner/mascara smudged! lol. As again, including me :X

Oh well, but overall the movie is nice la. The golden retriever is SUPER cute and obedient. Hmm. maybe a rating of 4 out of 5 stars :D
(prepare tissue if you wanna catch this movie)

Oh and driving lessons? 1.5 out of 5 stars. "super boring"
Zohan? 2.5 out of 5 stars. "amusing but doesnt make sense"
My standard very high one ok? lol

10 promises to my dog made me treasure Beano even more and more!
10 years pass by like a blink of the eye :(

BEANO THE GREAT :D
(just like her sister. lol)

2008-07-08T01:43:00.009+08:00

UPDATES FROM A THOUSAND YEARS AGO!

28May 2008
Graduation!

Glad to say i survived 3 years of accounting!!!

And i met the two "love of my life" LOL

<3

Sometime in May/June
Kransky sisters with Bee, Bel, Peter and RS

Attracted by this weird looking poster, we decided to catch the play!

In real life, they look like this!!

Dont judge the kransky sisters by their looks! They are really talented! They made use of weird objects like the saw, and created nice music.
They sing and act well too, just that they look very scary :x. lol.

19June2008
Celebrated my birthday with baby!

Though he failed in giving me a surprise (cus he's a bad bad liar, and i can read his mind . tehehe), it was still fun :D

Lunch buffet at Equinox

Superb view

Toy cars and buses :)

lovely food

lovely dessert!

Surprisingly it wasn't like super expensive, was about $110 for 2pax buffet
I had lots and lots of raw oysters, crabs, prawns, sashimi.. Therefore, it was quite worth it :D

Next up, we went to City Plaza, thought of grabbing some cheap stuffs there. However, i ended up buying nothing. Stuffs were cheap but fugly :X

Then, we headed to Sentosa!! We sat on the skyride and luge, was my 2nd time but it was still damn fun.
Was frantically grabbing my bag, slippers and camera on the skyride, therefore, pictures turned out very bad. As such, no pictures shall be posted up! lol.

Camwhored

Silly boy!

weee~

Lovely birthday present from my baby :)
Heart you.

30June2008
Movie day with JM RS and Bee!

Settled at a cafe which we happened to pass by while waiting for our movie. It was like a bar setting with jazz music. Ambience was really good and we get to play wiiiii as long as we ordered a drink! Drink was reasonably priced and w/o service charge n gst!

Well, skip the details, i won golf :D

Tadaaa!

Queen of Golf - Jen :D:D:D lol.

2008-06-12T23:12:00.021+08:00

hk 22-26Apr2008 :)

1st day
arrived in the afternoon, took a cab from the airport back to hotel in jordon. Distance approximately from (singapore)town to pasir ris
and it cost us S$70!!.The driver told us tt there was an airport surcharge of S$20, like wth go rob a bank la!
So we took train called MTR (not MRT) to Mongkok and shopped til night. Bought a S$2 packet cold noodle which was really interesting and delicious in the shopping centre. The concept was to add any 3 ingredients for S$2. CHEAP RIGHT! They had stufs like pigeon eggs, octopus, and err, i cant remb alrdy. lots and lots of varieties!

YUMMY :D:D:D

Mummy and me in Mongkok :)

Bossini in hk is like 4 stories high!

Had dinner with dear's parents in some ulu place after tt. The place was very much like those old n run down shops with a long flight of stairs at the side shown in hk dramas.
Food there was superb! Had some oyster porridge, oyster pancake, all different parts of pigs, such as pig ears,small and big intestines all tt. Sounds bad, but tastes really good!! :D To be honest, i loved the intestines. lol

Next, we took mini bus which travelled at like 90km/h to Tsim Sha Tsui to shop again. hehs. Nothing much there though, was more like the pasar malam type.

Me in hk mini bus

Food in Tsim Sha Tsui

Buying bubbletea! :)

Next up, dessert!!! I guess its a must-try and must-have-it-everynight thing in hk. lol.

2nd day
Had breakfast in cha can ting. (direct translation= tea restaurant??)
Breakfast were in sets and served very fast, like 3mins after ordering! They had stufs like egg/ham sandwiches, macaroni with beef/chicken, spagetti, puolo buns....and it was super cheap! like S$4 per set inclusive of a drink.
Mummy wanted to go to the temple at Dai Yu Shan. Took about 1hr to get there! Honestly, it was kindof boring :X Tickets were at about S$5-8 per person and it included free vegetarian food and supersoft and smooth beancurb, therefore making this trip still quite worth going. hehs.

Look at the flight of stairs!!!

DISNEYLAND WAS NEXT :D:D:D:D:D
Stayed on all the way til night to catch the fireworks. Spent a great deal of time rushing for shows cus rides there are pretty limited. They didnt have stufs like Indiana Jones ride, characters' houses..etc. Shows, parades and fireworks were pretty good :D

Disneytrain!

Rice thingy in Micky mouse shape.Catered to HK disneyland only!

Lion King Show

Our lunch

Disney Parade! Was fantastic!!

Lovely treehouse :)

Spot me!

Left Disneyland and headed on to Temple Street for dinner! Had streetside dinner which was pretty cool. Ordered snails,claypot rice, fried chicken......YUMMY though not very healthy hehs.

Yes, dessert again :D

3rd day
Train to ShenZhen :D Dear's sister and her bf joined us. Headed to the train station and we saw this express soup shop. The soup was like, the healthy kind, brewed and no MSG. We had some pear thingy with chicken. Tasted good but pretty weird since there wasn't any ingredients, jus pure soup in paper bowl. The conclusion, HK people love drinking soup, supported by HK dramas :D

Reached Shenzhen in like 30-40mins,pretty fast.Once we stepped out of the train station, people started approaching us, showing us their menu or services such as medicure/pedicure... They even followed us all the way to the shopping centre and tried to lead us to their shop. So shocked to see how desperate these people are in trying to get customers.
Had lunch in a chinese restaurant. Dimsum there was fabulous!! :D Lots of varieties and delicious! Prices were reasonable too.

Next up, shopping!! :D
Went to do medicure, bargained like siao. Dear's sister introduced us to one of the shops, but we couldnt find it. This stupid lady bluffed us saying tt it has closed down, so we could do our medicure in her shop. Felt so cheated when dear said he found the shop after tt! STUPID NEHNEH LADY.

Dinner was at this place

Xiao fei yang - Small fat lamb

After dinner, MASSAGE :D
2 words to describe --> super ticklish!! lol.
When we left Shenzhen, it was 5am...:X

4th day
OCEAN PARK :D:D:D

The place was pretty old and super crowded with china tourists. They had a number of scary rides such as this..

which i took and closed my eyes for like almost the whole ride.

and others such as roller coaster, which faced the mountain and sea area. There's also this super scary ride where u go high up and jus drop in a split second. All, which....i didnt try :X hehs.

Cablecar was really really high too.

Worn a Jumbo prize on our first game!

Dinner at temple street

5th day - last day :(
Back to Tsim Sha Tsui for a walk and left to the airport.

Something interesting i saw..

Take a closer look!

The motorbike loaded with skinless chickens!! so dirtyyyyyy!!!

I miss HK :(

2008-04-22T02:23:00.001+08:00

off to hk!!! cant wait to see baby :) fantazia was a blast. shall elaborate another day, need my beauty sleep. hah : goodnight loves:D

2008-04-17T03:01:00.006+08:00

Fantazia's in less than 24hours, and i cant get to sleep. gosh :x

Its really really scary, i still think something's not right.. maybe for some items, expressions.. for others..fugly costumes..? i dunno :( maybe...screwed up steps..? ahhh!!!

Probably had more than 5 full rehearsals in studio for danzation and 5 in convention for danzation, such tt ann could even repeat one item over and over again or pick people or couples out to solo.

Fantazia? a few times in studio and convention? :( sigh.

Hope that everything will run smoothly during showtime! No more accidents like today..its really scary. Please take care of urself people!

Something funny to share :D HEHE.

Presenting .....

JOYCE POPPER FROM NRA :D:D:D:D

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

time for bed.

2008-04-14T17:45:00.004+08:00

NO MORE CONCESSION!! :( sucks, gotta worry about transportation costs from today onwards. 2 buses to school, to town to everywheree!! gosh, late for fullrun. BYE

2008-04-12T02:08:00.004+08:00

Brunch: KFC Bandito meal with additional fries Dinner: Chicken rice Barley Supper: Thosai masala ( no its not tho-sai its tho-seh heh) French fries 2 of shir's cookies Ice milo KILL ME PLEASE

2008-04-04T01:50:00.004+08:00

2 weeks to fantasia! dance hard everyone :)

its just me & my stupid thoughts,
stop myself, i will.

2008-04-03T02:03:00.004+08:00

Training as usual today, just that honeyX3 was cancelled and we went cine! Has been sooooo long since i've hanged out with jess & joyce. All the way to cine to eat KFC --> all because of shir's craving! lol. (shir ah shir...)

Met my dearest steph after that and though i was late, she wasnt angry with me :D LOVE LA.

Jus love chatting with you, our random stufs, dance stufs, gossips, and AHEM AHEM. :D hehs

Its a happy day today (you know why) :D

The videos, the memories & everything...

2008-03-28T02:22:00.011+08:00

<3<3<3<3

2008-03-26T02:48:00.007+08:00

I guess no one's ever gonna read this cus its been 10,000 years since i last blogged. :(
i almost forgot my password -.-
kayyy, its my fault kayyy

Have been dancing quite a lot recently due to the upcoming song & dance performance. Rather worried though cus formations are not up for most of my items and i've jus started to learn renfred's item! Yeah, and being missbadmemory certainly helps ;x

Oh and "AHEM" im officially a graduate of Ngee Ann Polytechnic School of Business & Accountancy :D (kindof, though i havent gotten my cert, heh) kay, nothing to be proud of too, since i didnt do well, not gd enough to enter into a local govn uni :( Sooo, i will probably in SIM, like next to NgeeAnn.

Zouk pics up soon - once i get them from bel (hello bellyyy??!!) lol.

preview which i took fr bel's friendster :D
got no idea what we were doing, no idea what i was laughing at.
gosh.threefifty alrdy! goodnight !!

ps. angel says she will drink macs' smoothies when she's 55.
:D love our chillouts laaa.

2007-10-05T02:05:00.000+08:00

Things happen for a reason- Cause and effect. I'm sure it is something I did or made you assumed I did, which caused things to land up this state. I'm not a perfect friend. Can you ever tell me in my face that you are perfect? That you have NEVER EVER left your friend? That you have ALWAYS been there with him/her?Just because you wished him/her goodluck for exams? I'm not perfect, I do forget birthdays at times, I don't meet them out as often, I don't sms very much too.Does that not make me a good friend? Well, maybe in your eyes. Let me tell you this, I don't give a damn about having good friends. All I want is to be a true friend. I might not have BEST or GOOD friends. SO? I'm not fake. I don't pretend to be close when I'm not. I be with people whom I'm comfortable with. I dont talk behind this person's back and put on a mask when I meet him/her up the next week. You are not me, neither are you anyone close to me, so I believe you are not eligible to judge me. I am not you too, so I can't stop you from talking. But guess what, true friends feel it. I don't tell them everyday that I miss them, similarly I don't tell them how precious they are to me, because they feel it. And if anyone tries to come in between to break the friendship, Im so sorry that you have failed, because being true, both of us have the trust in the other. But maybe sometimes when you are pointing a finger at others, do be careful cause eventually you are pointing the others at yourself. It's quite a pity things have came to this stage. Maybe you are sincerely trying to help us out, we appreciate it, but no thanks! Being able to adapt to someone crtitque will definately improve ur life in future -quoted this from Eric!! :) (thanks for hearing me out) From Eric, I've learnt much too. Sometimes we just gotta take the initiative. As what he said "You wait, I wait...wait until when??" lol. I realised that most of the time, he's the one greeting me on msn. Well, maybe this is the part of me not being that perfect? Im lazy at times, I dread going out especially when I've got no work, no school, no dance, no singing, no driving. Fine, lesson learnt. This is the way to go about improving right? Instead of going through others, why don't you just tell me directly? I won't whine and insist, I wont "revenge" and go about telling others too right? Seriously, I don't know how to describe my feelings now. A little of aggitated, sad, irritated and dissapointed? Its disspointing to know, that its you, the person I have least expected to be. Its sad to know that this is how you look at me. Well, up to this point, I'm really speechless. You can resist and make ur point for all you want. I'm just here to explain my stand, not to start an arguement or to end a friendship. You can choose to continue seeing me that way, I wouldnt expect this entry to change much.

2007-10-01T01:19:00.000+08:00

I reckon its time I updated my blog :) tehehehe. Well, be prepared for LOADS of complains. I think 29Sept can be officially named as SUAY DAY. On this fine day, I was happily dressed and out to meet my boyfriend. Happened that the bus was very full and I had to stand all the way. (was wearing nice, and a little high-heel shoe) FINE FINE, standing only maaa...The bus was rocking quite badly (stupid busdriver who braked so hard that one can almost fly out of the bus) AND the bus was moving so slowly, probably 30km/h on a 90km/h road. So, the busdriver was happily driving and driving that another bus of the same bus number actually overtook it! AND, the bus was pretty empty!!!!!!!!! I could have sat comfortably in the bus instead of grabbing onto the handles of the seats and hoping that the uncle with a very handsome centre parting with gel beside me wouldnt fall onto me! So when I was going home, I decided I should not stand on the bus anymore. Thus, I took a bus from Heeren to Plaza Singapura. Then, from Plaza Singapura I could take the bus with lots of seats! True indeed, I got a good seat and was happily happily playing NDS. When the bus reached Heeren, there were still quite a number of empty seats. -.- By the time it reached Far East Plaza, I had comforted myself that well, at least I got a seat, unlike those people who are coming up from this stop. AND OF ALL TIMES, OF ALL PLACES, OF ALL BUSSTOPS, THE STUPID BUS BROKE DOWN. Was nothing to do with the engines, just the doors which couldnt be closed! SEE, YOU TELL ME WHETHER I SUAY ANOT. In the end, I had to stand AGAIN :( ........................................................................................................................ Second Part of this entry. On another fine day, I was going home with my boyfriend. We took the train from Clarke Quay and changed train at some other station. (Cityhall I think?) When we went into the train, the two people in front of us got down so I prepared to take my seat right after they got down (courtesy to wait ma right?) Right after they stood up, this auntie standing 3people-distance from me actually squeezed through and quickly sat on the seats. NONO NOT A SINGULAR OR PLURAL ERROR. I DO MEAN SEAT-S. She was practially sitting in the middle of the 2seats to "book" the seat for her daughter. HOW RIDICULOUS CAN THAT BE!! Firstly, she snatched the seats from us. Secondly, she sat on the middle of 2seats. Guess whats the third?? When her daughter felt too embarrased to take the seat, she actually opened her mouth and offered me the seat!!!!!! WHAT!!! HOW NICE OF HER! Some passengers even laughed at her. I think her skin is even thicker than the elephants' or or or rhinoceros'! Gosh, should have taken her picture and post it up to shun or be wary of her. lol. Have been seeing so many people like her nowadays. Just today, this stupid uncle tried snatching a seat from a pregnant lady. MIND YOU, SHE'S PREGNANT! This uncle isnt even crippled or something. I dunno what's with me and public transport nowadays!!!!!!!! AHH!

2007-09-02T00:41:00.000+08:00

One last post before i leave for my trip to Australia. Well, I should be looking forward to this trip, but so many things have happened, I kindof feel reluctant to go. Now i finally do understand, why people always say that quarelling improves a relationship, not break it. In fact, I am dissapointed with him, but I hope time will prove the changes. Im glad we talked it out, though i cant deny there are still questions lingering in my mind. Questions which he never gave an answer... I'll be back in two weeks. miss ya guys :) take careee.

2007-08-30T01:43:00.000+08:00

A relationship is never a two-person-thing. I never knew it was so hard accepting everything of him, including his family members and his way of life. This is not the way i am brought up, and i cant help feeling that inch of jealousy. I know it is just about trust, but i lack confidence in myself. I am inferior and cant take any comparisons. I have never doubted your love, it aint your fault. It's just me and my inferiority.

2007-08-08T23:11:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday Singapore!! *sings "We are singapore..we are singapore..we will stand together..erm. hear the lion roar?" oh, what about this "Roll over the ocean..roll over the sea..we will build some community?" "Chan Mali Chan HOIHOI" Reminds me of primary school days where we had to follow the music and do some hand gestures. So fun lorr, students even have the priviledge of having 1 and a half day off. ITS JUST SOOO GREAT BEING A STUDENT ;) I have learnt to appreciate during my attachment days. Lunchtime, 5.30pm and public hols are the only things you look forward everyday being a working adult. Ohwell, Im still glad i got through my attachment and met many nice people ;) Yes i know, stop the "attachment" thing. Back to my current life! Has been great slacking at home, watching dvds, shopping, meeting up with old friends.... Went for a lunch buffet with my mum at M Hotel today. Both of us, being pretty "lu chi" (road idiotic :x) lost our way. We got down the bus at somewher near outram mrt station and chinatown , wondering M Hotel must be somewhere nearby. We ended up walking around and lastly, taking a cab. Thus, our reserved table was given to someone else. Apparently, it is actually located at Shenton way, a few stops from my office i used to have my attachment at. Next, we decided to shop at Fareast plaza. We took a bus and ended up lost AGAIN. Ended up at tanjong katong this time. -.-It took us about 1 hour to reach Fareast plaza. Luckily, it wasnt a wasted trip cos the both of us bought some clothes and shoes ;)) teeeheeeee For all those having their examinations, good luck and study hard ok?? ;)

2007-08-08T00:51:00.000+08:00

Yayyy!! I have finally chosen my skin and updated ;) Blog's not complete as yet. No surprises, but check on it time to time! (increase my popularity can!) Its been some time since i blogged, guess it would take some time to read all your recent updates eh? My 6mths attachment came to an end on the 3rd Aug. ITS FINALLY OVERRRR! Arent you guys glad?? No more complains and pangseh-ing! wahahahaha. This attachment has given me the confirmation that...an office job is NOT what i actually want. Accountancy is NOT what i want to pursue in. I have my dreams. But as what i jus said ; it is "a dream." How will a dream ever come true?